"KATIE-LALA OVER COMES HER NERVOUS BREAKDOWN ONE DIY PROJECT AT A TIME." Said with such conviction and optimism, that I don't feel today. Let's face it Depression and Anxiety really suck, and everyday is going to be different. No matter how much you want it to be wonderful, sometimes it just isn't . Today has been a really hard day for me. I've been day dreaming about running to my closet and crying all day, but I didn't so I suppose that's the important part. I'm not exactly sure why I've Always loved to hide in closets when I am upset. I have ever since I could remember. Today went by so painstakingly slow. You know how if you were to go into a black hole in space it would seem as if only moments passed, but in reality if you were to come back, thousands of years would have passed, that's how I felt today. But as they also say "THIS TO SHALL PASS". So maybe tomorrow will be different. Today I tried my hardest not to fall apart, and didn't. Believe me it wasn't easy. I tried incredibly hard and made an amazing dinner, and Flour-less Peanut Butter cookies. Only 36 calories and super yummy. In my book, and circumstances, I would say I did okay for myself. Just take it one step at a time. Try and take it moment by moment. Consciously make a decision to try and not worry about what might, or could happen, most often in my mind what has happened. I'm trying not to. Do I feel great right now? No. I might tomorrow, I might not. All I can do is my best. All day in my head I've been repeating a line Dory says in the animated movie Finding Nemo. "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming." I didn't sink so suck on that depression!!!
Any way here is the recipe for those delicious guilt free Peanut Butter Cookies. You can eat one for only 36 calories, or eat 3, for the calorie price of one normal peanut butter cookie, which is what I did.
- 1 Cup Peanut Butter
- 1 Cup Sugar
- 1Egg
- 1 tsp. baking soda
